This isn’t supposed to happen to me. I’ve been a lifelong gamer. I have a Twitch channel that has a meager following but I maintain a solid schedule. For the last couple of weeks, though, I’ve been thrown completely off my game (no pun intended).
For the last two weeks, life has been hectic. Work has picked up its pace, keeping me late more often than normal. I’ve also been training for a half marathon, which has left me with less time as my runs become longer. If all of that weren’t enough, my brother recently began college again, pursuing a degree in the same field I hold my Bachelors in, so I’ve been assisting with homework.
All of this has left me feeling…apathetic…when it comes to video games. I still look forward to sitting down in front of the TV or keyboard, but I don’t feel compelled to play anything right now. My brother and I have slowly been working through Diablo 3: Reaper of Souls on Xbox One (review forthcoming), but aside from that, I haven’t felt driven to play anything. That’s despite 400+ games between my Steam library and all of my consoles.
This might not sound like a big deal. With Destiny coming out in a week, my drive will pick back up. I’ll be pulling a 12-hour stream on the game’s launch. I just want to take some time away from it all and retreat to Netflix.
This all affects my livestreaming schedule. I’m sure this sounds minuscule, but I try to treat my livestreaming as a form of ministry. I engage my viewers, playing games and having fun, but I keep an open door on prayer requests and try to lend an ear to folks that need it, truly engaging my viewers.
This leads me to a quandary. Am I merely in a funk until my most anticipated game of the year comes out? Am I hurting a ministry opportunity by choosing to play nothing than goof around with something off the cuff?
What do you think? Should I be playing something on-air even when I’m not driven to? Have you ever experienced gaming apathy? Something more sinister than that? Please share and let us know.