I think you need to know the truth. This is something very important, and you mean a lot to me. I’m tired of the hypocrites, and of the others who are acting like they are perfect. I’ve been meaning to write this for quite some time, but I wasn’t sure how to express myself. I mean, do I write about how I don’t feel you understand me when we talk, or maybe I should be critical and point out all your faults (as if I don’t have my own, which I do). No, because then how are we going to connect? How can I explain faith to someone who doesn’t believe at all? Well, let me tell you my story and you will see that we aren’t as different as you may think.
I was born in the USA of Cuban descent, and only went to Catholic mass on Sundays because my mother made me. It was something nice to do, but it was really boring. I would stare at my watch and wait for it to be over, while the priest gave sermons that I still can’t remember anything about. My family just believed in God and didn’t take it any further than that, but I wanted to know more. I was tired of hearing about a God who cared about me, loved me, yet I could not experience Him. Non-believer, I think you have the same desire, to know God personally and for yourself. There’s that connection we all want to have with the Divine, and we search for it in religion, pleasure, money, relationships and much more.
You’ve probably met a lot of other believers who have these nice stories of how they were raised in church, got “saved” at age 5 and sang in the choir. They might have never said a cuss word in their life, or maybe every time you ask them how they are they say “blessed!” Their lives seem impervious to anything negative. Yet, that’s not reality, and we both know that. I want to tell you though, that I’m not that kind of person.
I didn’t have a screwed up childhood, but I have lived my share of sin (and still make mistakes all the time). I wasn’t married a virgin, I cussed more times than I can remember, and didn’t have the most positive outlook on life. Lust and perversion were constant thoughts in my mind without any restraint. I’ve also messed around with the occult, studying astrology, horoscopes and learning a little bit about magic.
I want to tell you that I have already tried all of that, and it didn’t fulfill me. Been there, got the t-shirt.
My search continued, but I found the answer when I was 17 years old. Discovering that I could have a relationship with Jesus Christ, who is the Living Son of God, changed my life. After accepting His forgiveness for my sin, admitting that I needed to be wiped clean and born again, I made that decision. I don’t know about other people, but for me that radically changed me. I went straight home and threw away a bunch of inappropriate anime VHS tapes I had, and some other media that wasn’t pornographic but was just vulgar or demonic in nature.
Being fake doesn’t prove anything to anyone. Aren’t you tired of people not telling you the truth, or people acting like they have it together when they are falling apart in private? You need to stop looking for something new to fill the void you have in your soul, because it doesn’t exist.
I am married, we own our own home in beautiful Miami, FL, graduated with my bachelor’s degree and working in my career field, growing a business and have great friends. They are all a part of my life, sure, and can be seen as “making it” but they aren’t a payment for all the wrongs I’ve done. I needed someone to explain to me what forgiveness was, because I couldn’t sleep at night knowing that there was no way to erase my sins.
Doing good deeds doesn’t abolish the pornography I’ve watched, or the insults I’ve told others. Only Jesus Christ can do that. He is the sacrifice for all the world who took all our offenses on the cross. God poured out His wrath and judgement on His only Son, so we wouldn’t have to be punished.
“How do you know that I will be punished for living how I want? It’s my life, I can live it however I feel.” True, but let’s be real. In every nation there are laws, regulations and restrictions. If you decide to do what you want, there will be consequences whether you agree, like or don’t like it. If we, imperfect as we are, can create systems of judgement and order regardless of culture, language or location, then you can bet God who is the judge of all the Earth will have them as well.
25 Surely you wouldn’t do such a thing, destroying the righteous along with the wicked. Why, you would be treating the righteous and the wicked exactly the same! Surely you wouldn’t do that! Should not the Judge of all the earth do what is right?” Genesis 18:25
My friend, I want you to know the Truth. Truth is a Person, and His name is Jesus Christ. All you have to do is accept the fact that you need His forgiveness. Maybe you need a healing in your body, or your struggling with a form of addiction or spiritual torment. He can take all that away, and you don’t have to be perfect to get it. Pray right now, that God would forgive you of your sins in the name of Jesus, and ask Jesus Christ to enter into your life and help you get through all the issues your facing. His plan is better than your plan, His ways are more beneficial for you than your own ways or plans. Surrender to His love.
34 Jesus replied, “I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave of sin. 35 A slave is not a permanent member of the family, but a son is part of the family forever. 36 So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free.