Why I Don’t Want To Be A Christian Anymore

Before you lose your mind about the title of this post, I’m not claiming apostasy or my desire to leave my relationship with Jesus. I love Jesus with all my heart, even though I fail Him daily. In fact, in the last few weeks I have felt closer to Him than I have in a long time. The encouragement, the peace, the joy in turmoil, all have come from Him.
It’s the Christians. I’m so tired of the Christians.
When I first repented of my sin and gave my life to Jesus I did so with the thought in mind that I would never be like the hypocrites. My main reason for not becoming a Christian was the corruption and hypocrisy with the church. The pastors who talked about money, the believers who worshipped on Sunday but cheated on their spouses on Monday – these were the people I promised I would not become. Granted, it’s been a difficult journey and I have made a ton of mistakes, but I continue to focus on not being one of “them”.
The SCOTUS decision this last weekend has brought out some of the worst attributes from some of the “best” people here in my social circles. I have seen some straight up hatred disguised as “truth” from so many people. I have seen people act completely insane toward a decision that has no effect on actual traditional marriage. I have also seen people like Joshua Feuerstein capitalizing on this fervor by making a T-shirt to sell people under the premise that its message has been banned from Facebook.
I have seen popular blog posts from guys I respected like Matt Walsh, essentially saying that Jesus was not “nice” to people, and that we should shout down sin in people from the mountain tops. That we should somehow hold non-Christians accountable and to the standard of the bible. Now, correct me if I’m wrong, but most of the people Jesus rebuked were the religious people. I don’t recall reading that Jesus condemned Nicodemus for asking about being born again. Or when Jesus encountered the woman at the well (though Jesus mentioned that He knew she wasn’t with her husband), He didn’t all of a sudden approach the woman and say, “You dirty sinning whore, be gone from me“.

[blockquote right=”pull-right”]”With love, a door will open that someone will be willing to hear the gospel truth because they trust your words.” [/blockquote]

The Jesus I read about and know is one who defied religious logic and went to places to teach others about God – He turned their thinking upside down. The Beatitudes weren’t reasonable, they were hard. “Blessed are the meek“? That doesn’t make a whole lot of sense, even today. Yet, Jesus has always done what we wouldn’t expect.
The righteous anger we see, comes from God, as does vengeance. I can’t speak for most people but the gospel should be somewhat appealing, not discouraging.
I admit, I don’t have it all figured out just yet, but what I do know is none of us really do. It’s coming to a point where I have to defend my faith from others in my faith. It’s a sad day when I have to say to a non-believer that I’m a Christian, just not “that” type of Christian. It’s easy for people to preach hate and hellfire, because they don’t have to think about how that makes someone else respond, they just chalk it up to the person being “reprobate” or “lost“. They don’t have to look that person in the eyes when they are hurting and confused.
You can cast stones at people all day and eventually you will hit a sinner where it makes a difference; however, it takes work, sacrifice and selflessness to get dirty in loving someone no matter their sin. With love, a door will open that someone will be willing to hear the gospel truth because they trust your words.
There are 2 types of people that we interact with, and both should be handled in different ways. For those proclaiming a relationship with Jesus, those are the ones who we should be speaking the hard truth in correction and love to. For those who are not in a relationship with Christ, we should be speaking to them with Truth seasoned with grace and love as they are not held to God’s standards due to the inherent sin that they have not been made free of.

Drew Koehler

Founder and writer for Geeks Under Grace. Christian, Husband, Father, Sailor and Geek!


  1. MB on July 2, 2015 at 2:48 am

    Well-written and timely. God bless.

  2. Alec Dorang on July 2, 2015 at 2:35 am

    A very well-written article – I completely understand where you’re coming from, Drew. I have seen a wide range of deplorable reactions from fellow Christians this week. However, there are two things I would point out about this. First of all, some people do have genuine cause to feel angry; even frightened. There are good-hearted, loving people in my church who have received death threats from all over the world just because they refused to affirm a homosexual relationship by providing wedding services. This ruling will only make it more difficult for them to defend themselves and their livelihood. They don’t hate homosexuals or treat them unkindly; they merely want to be free to hold to their own principles. Granted, no one is justified in behaving in a way that dishonors Christ, but I feel it’s important to remember that not everyone is lashing out due to mere arrogance. We do need to speak out (with courtesy and respect!) on behalf of our religious freedoms.

    But there’s another group of Christians whose behavior is inexcusable and totally lacking in Christian love – the people who celebrate the SCOTUS ruling and choose not to interpret Biblical condemnations of homosexuality “literally”. I have to set myself apart from this crowd just as much as the fire-and-brimstone camp. It’s not loving to put rainbow colors on your Facebook profile and affirm Christ at the same time. That just gives people a false impression of what our faith teaches and places them in further danger of an eternity without God. There needs to be a balance between kindness and truth. “If all men are offended because of Christ, then let them be offended; but where is the sense of their being offended by something that is not Christ and is nothing like him? … Surely it is not the business of the Church to adapt Christ to men, but to adapt men to Christ.” – Dorothy Sayers

    • Manuel Olivas on July 3, 2015 at 6:45 pm


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